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Idk if this is going to mean anything or if ill just end up sounding really weird but i feel like i have to share this ok
So at the start of the year, like september/october, i was put sitting next to one of my best mates in French, which was brilliant. Except for the fact that we cant be near each other for beating each others head for laughs and taking the piss out of everything and talking so I got moved, next to the most irritating little shit in the damn class, but at least I was next to a window. From the window I could see the back of one of the science prefabs lab place. One of the days at like the start of november the second or third year science class (or maybe it was fifth or TY i really don’t know but anyway) they were outside and instead of paying attention I was watching what they were doing. They had this wooden box that was like in the shape of a star, and it was all hollowed out. They didn’t do anything they just left it there and talked about it or whatever they were going to do with it, I couldn’t hear it. The next day they had filled in with soil and i was like ‘wtf’ and i didn’t really see them again after that , except occasionally one of them or the teacher would be out watering it. So all through November and December I would look out the window and the box with soil would just be sitting there like a boss and I was just confused like what was it for why what where when and all this shit and then obviously because it was winter it like froze a bit and I was just like the poor box omg because I’m awesome like that and I feel emotion towards inanimate objects but yeah
So we came back after xmas break and i had kind of forgotten about it because that was after my relapse and i was really upset and stressed and i had to start counselling and stuff
But when I looked out the window in french on my first day back i seen it and was like ‘omg’ there was little buds shooting out and so then i was like clearly they’re growing flowers for science for like an ecology project or something
So the weeks went on and things felt shittier than ever and mocks were flying at us faster than Dean Winchester to a pie eating competition and idk watching the flowers grow everyday gave me hope or strength or at least calmed me down a bit idk why it just did
And when they were fully grown just past the start of april i looked out one day and the box wasn’t there anymore and it freaked me out a bit cause they had been there almost all year and it was like a part of my school experience for this year and it wasn’t there anymore and i felt a bit sad
When i was walking out of school that same day i seen it. The box was sitting there all the flowers beautiful and bright and fully grown and there was a little card reading that it was in remembrance of the holocaust.
And i almost started crying cause i felt proud of them flowers (yes i know I’m a freak do you need a minute to comprehend that can we continue now thanks)
I was like they’re representing something so awful that happened and they’re so beautiful and i just went a bit jajkhfjksdbkjfsjkbf
So that was last month and now if course they’re wilted and dead and the box is gone and idk where they put it (somewhere nice i hope)
Idk if this is of any importance but to me it felt like it was saying that things don’t last forever and to appreciate stuff in the moment while it was there, like they were saying ‘yes ok you have exams this year it wont be easy but this year isn’t gonna last forever so take your time appreciate the moment and don’t panic what happens happens and it will be over before you know it’ and also that sometimes the most beautiful things have rough beginnings ( the flowers , the bad winter making the soil freeze and stuff) and to keep going and stay strong
If you’ve read all this then awesome
This was just something i felt i needed to share don’t ask why
But it just feels like a message to keep going and stay strong even though times are getting tough right now
Thanks flowers thank you